So on a sidenote, I found out that Cry was the last to die in that Diablo III RoS Competition, and I'll all happy about it now~ Especially seeing how he can fuck up so easily in his usual let's plays, but then the competition him and Mark were last to go. XD
Butttttt anyways, back to the point.
If anything, I'm aiming to be home by the end of this month, at latest a few days into May. I have to work really hard on school and everything still, even if I'm not doing so well right now, but...eh, it's just something I need to do. Preferably before my Mom comes back, but I can only control so much. I have to be prepared to deal with all the fucked up shit that comes with going back to Mom and grandma and all of the bullshit that's scarred me in that home. So, I guess in a fucked way, school shouldn't stress me out so much. Maybe it stresses me out subconsciously (first time I've spelled that right btw, so proud) that I have to deal with everything again and come back from that mental vacation, but...I have to help my grandma I guess. I don't know. I hope shit doesn't go down how I'm afraid it will.
But, being home soon means no more school, and I can do what I like during the day for the most-part. In otherwords, I can start up commissions again, and I can pay you guys back for the points you paid me, okay? I can also start with the Ceux Brillants comic again, it's just difficult to keep that up above anything. I just want so badly to improve, to get a consistent style going, before I do the next pages, but at the same time I'd like to get them out more quickly. Ah, I dunno, I'll work with it. I've been practicing and I'll continue to practice, and at this point I feel no shame in looking at manga tutorials for anatomy and face structures. Because fuck it, if I want to shape my style up more, then I have to learn and study more, so no sense in feeling shame for assisting myself. Ehhhh I'm rambling again.
To shorten things up, by the time a month has passed I should be back into normal routine again with commissions and pages and whatnot. Once I get home, I hope I can keep doing these things.
Really though, thanks for being so nice and everything. You're all so sweet I just can't asdfghjkl;
It really is helpful and all, just getting to talk about random things, although I'm really sorry if I don't respond back to conversations...I still haven't broken that habit yet.
If anything though, now I have you guys as motivation to to finish up school as quickly as I can, so maybe that can help me. Eh, I can only hope everything at home will be okay now.
Well okay, I guess that's all for now. .u. I don't know how I went from being happy to bothered to cheerful, but sure whythefucknot. I'll take it, I don't need another night of getting all upset~ I'm still super bored and not tired though, so I'll just have to find a way to amuse myself until I'm ready to sleep. (It's 2:30AM, I really should sleep //sob)OkayI'llstopnow,byeeee.
And on another sidenote, if you ever bought me something from Cry's shop or Cry related I think I'd automatically owe you my life jesusfuckingshit